dear ms.eversosweet..

i always complaint to you.

i cant resist ur cuteness.

and ur smile is kinda sweet.

but ur scent is even sweeter :D

i never smiled that wide,

i never laughed that hard,

i never talked so much.

i never felt this comfortable.

hehe

;)

smelly girl~

IGNITE 2010

SEE YOU GUYS AT IGNITE! IM FUCKING EXCITED! BYE!

i miss my band=(

If you think its for you, then its for you.


Days To Her Absence
It's Raining, Down Here I'm Breathing
With My Good Friend Sitting Beside Me
I'd Always Thought That She Means The World
But Not Anymore, Coz It Seems Like We've Done Here..

It's Good To Know She Still Cares About Me,
This Is What We're Meant To Be
I Can't Bear To Let It Go
It's Painful To Start All Again..

She Makes Me Run Until There
Said She Doesn't Even Care
I'm Just Pretending, That Everything's Fine..
She Kept Me Waiting All Day Long
I'm Not Used To Being Alone
If I Could Turn Back Our Best Times..

I'm Not That Someone She Thought Who Can
Take Good Care Of Her And Show Love The Way She Wants
She Knew How Much My Love For Her
But Not For Now, Coz It Seems Like We're Dying..

I'm Dissapoint By Those Tears In Her Eyes
Rolling Down Her Beutiful Face
It's Like We're Not Suppose To Be Together
But It just Keeps Linger In My Mind

She Makes Me Run Until There
Said She Doesn't Even Care
I'm Just Pretending, That Everything's Fine..
She Kept Me Waiting All Day Long
I'm Not Used To Being Alone
If I Could Turn Back Our Best Times..

Here's A Last Kiss From Me To You,
Let's Make This A Night To Remember
Get Me Off Your Head, Tell Me Something
Before It's Gone How Could You Let It Past By
There Won't Be Any Next Time
You Save Me From The Worst Nightmare
That Got Me Into This, But I Really Hate To Be This Way

She Makes Me Run Until There
Said She Doesn't Even Care
I'm Just Pretending, That Everything's Fine..
She Kept Me Waiting All Day Long
I'm Not Used To Being Alone
If I Could Turn Back Our Best Times..

miss you.

you can leave anytime u want.

Dont question, just listen.

am I invading into ur secrets?
am I too close for comfort?
ure pushing me out when I wanted in
who the fuck would put in so much
effort just to pleased someone?
what i hate most is,u wasnt being honest.
id told u i wouldnt be mad.
u think ill get dissapointed and felt embarrased abt it?
cmon arh im not a sissyfuck sia. grrr whatever the hart is alr in pieces.
i meant it when i say that. u think i was fooling arnd arh?
i shouldnt have bother and stop squeezing myself to u.
thinking back i was an idiot. that was plain stupidity.
why did ive to fall for u man. ughh this really freaks me out.

let me call this karma, ive did this to someone on her birthday.
and now its my turn. ohh great.
dont worry, ull be rmbed since it was 2days before my bday.
ive always needed u in my life. yeah always.
but do u ever need me?
i can see u everywhere with anyone.
maybe uve got this things, these powers to manipulate ppl's mind.
dont u think so?
u were lucky im patient. if not i would have turned into a monster.
haaah just kidding.

i don't want you to feel sorry for me.
ur sorry doesnt have any meaning in my life anymore.
u never gave us a chance to be
i don't need you to be by my side
to tell me that everything's alright.
all i wanted was the truth.
u know id do that for u.
cause i did enough to show you that i
was willing to give and sacrifice.
and when I get close, you turn away.
there's nothing that I can do or say.
is it me, is it you?
nothing that I can do to make you change your mind.

i cant face u anymore. im a coward when things gets messy
and out of hands.
u can have ur way, ill have mine.
i'll look back, with honor and no regrets.
i won't be mad, won't feel bad.
these memories will never leave me.
don't be sad cause life goes on.

cant help it. im sorry for what ive said.
goodbye goodnight, i'll move on.
you'll call it fate, i'll call it karma.
we had our time, it was fun while it lasted.
im just a piece of dirty tissue to u now.
now im feel so wasted might as well i just get wasted.
fuck i cant be fruity anymore.
fuck that, I'm depressed let's go bad boy and call in some pussies over.
I got fed up and I'm definitely gonna go back to old school.

im gonna cry to my mom right nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
fuck u all! just chill and ride the flow.

suddenly the internet connections sucks at night;
it should be the other way round.
ohh whateverrrrrrrrrr~

lets see..
i cant sleep. i wanna sleep. im always looking forward to sleep. cuz i like it when my dream goes wild. and wet too. hehe.
i try forcing myself to be sleepy by listening to some classical sheitty song that would knock me out in seconds but NO. doesnt work that way.
but instead it drive me headache. what am i suppose to do now?

ohh and i forgot that next week is my birthday until Sharifah^.^ told me so.
everyone has a birthday wish, so do i.
but i find it rather lame kez ppl will laugh out loud if i told them the wish i had.
every year its the same. i dont find it special. its like i dont celebrate much with my family but my friends are more excited that my family do kind of thing. get it?

hmm. i find myself weird as in really weird.
i like doing stupid things w/o any reason.(watch too much of jackass)
sometimes i idle at the corner of my room just to find that im daydreaming somehow.
maybe some part of my brain is not working well. who cares, i like what im doin.

and yes finally i hear u sing! the distant lullaby voice kinda thing. i LOIKEE<3
i may seem like a bee outside but u dont know how much of a butterfly i become whenever u came across my mind=))
ugh i feel weird expressing myself in public.

Meet Adelya<3

shes may not be the most sexiest guitar ive got but shes the BEST!

the other one is my first.

the name's Turbo.

i just like giving names to my precious things i cared for. although thats gay.

This is more like to express and show the chapters of my small world.

hehe.

turn up the volume a lil cause its kinda soft. HEH.

To love or leave.

this is an old song which brings alot of memories back.

and i sucked at singing.

and this is random.

Enjoy.

Thanks.

bye.

hello ppl.

lazy sia want to blog.

lazy sia want to go work.

lazy sia want to bath.

lazy sia want to shave my 6months old hairy armpit.

lazy sia want to flush after peeing.

lazy sia want to type.

and its not funny eh.

stop smiling infront of the screen.

*take a minute to listen to ur hart*

idk if youre serious about this.

are u making me go round in circles or do u just need my accompany?

to be honest, this hart just doesnt beat to the path where i am right now.

i wish i could ask u but this isnt the right time.

based on trust, i know i can trust on you and i bet u can trust on me kez im always the man of my words.

you share ur personal life experience as in things that not suppose to be told.

sometimes without you realising it, im actually listening to ur hart. ur feelings.

but some secret are not meant to share. im fine with all of it.

girls are complicated. no, you are complicated i can tell.

you once said that all guys are the same. i beg to differ. i disagree.

youre different from other girls i know. for sure.

sometimes its hard to tell that youre really into smth.

although youre always looking happy and smiling.

im just confused by the way you sound and act.

its like youre a different person each day and that make it a challenge to know who you really are.

the real you. the real R.

i wanna know whats happening on the other side of the wall.

i was in this situation once. its like dejavu.

and that i would stumble across the key

or break down the door to ur hart.